Playing super Mario game in the laptop only added to my increasing restlessness. The next thing I could do was wrap myself warm in the thick winter quilts and subdue the bone ripping chills of February month; then I lay engrossed fiddling my cell scrolling through the call logs and text msgs. (Wonder what I would do if not for this mobile world I live in)
The last call I made was to my dear dad. I thought of making a call again but something held me back. What was that? Someone said it ‘Life shrinks and expands to the proportion of one’s courage’.
I don’t seem to have the courage to hear my dad sounding unwell; I don’t seem to find the courage to see him lying sick fragile and weak during my vacation to home, I don’t seem to find the courage to sit near him entertain him with all the jokes that I have collected for him all this while I was away from home because I bloody have lost out on my courages to pretend things are allright when it’s NOT.
Trying to put my running random thoughts into order to stop this restlessness just made me come into terms with another true saying ‘you never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have’
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